My Ego Is Gone Now

My ego is gone now
I am ready to understand you better

I know it,

You were waiting for someone from the past

You got beautiful memories from the past

Till I came to your life and changed something

But honestly,

I am okay here

I’m truly happy to see you happy

It’s okay to leave me here

Cause I already have a beautiful story

It’s nice knowing you

It's nice to love each other

But now I wanna go

And please let me go

Just like me letting you go happily

We are not properties to be owned

We are humans that want to flourish

My ego is gone now

I hope yours too

I am fine

Just please tell me that I am insignificant
I am fine
I know I am significant, but not in your life.

Just please tell me that I am nothing
I am fine
I know I am everything for someone, but not for you.

Just please tell me that you are fine without me
I am fine
I know I will be fine without you too, but not today.

Just please tell me that you do not need me
I am fine
I know I need you today, but I will never need you anymore. 

4 PM

It was 4 PM, 

you were sitting by the lake

It was 4 PM,

You thought about those...

Those you have dated

Those you have kissed

Those you have slept with

It was 4 PM,

You wondered why were there not so many meaningful memories?

You wondered why were you still looking for me in someone else’s body?

You wondered why do not both of us settle down? Together?

It was almost 5 PM,

I told you that this is impossible

Cause I am already you

Honesty

You deserve honesty
When you are always honest with yourself

You deserve honesty
When you are honest with your true feeling

You deserve honesty
When you always speak honestly

You deserve honesty
When you are the true honesty

Six

It’s number six,
You’ve been living there for more than six months

It takes more than six,
Countless people had taken me somewhere

It’s less than six,
It’s been more than four years since the last time

It’s more than six,
It’s ten fingers of yours that I want to touch

It’s not six,
You’re number one here...right now

Congratulations

I have been telling myself that this is nothing

This is something that we should have never fight

I let you get it

I let myself stay in here

You would say that I should have taken the chance

Only when I don’t take the chance

And let you take the chance

Don’t you know that a lot of people can be happy together?

Don’t you know that there are more than two  choices, not just friends and enemies?

You would say that I am wrong

Only when I don’t let myself to be a victim

And let you be the victim

Who wants to be a victim anyway?

Who wants to be in the silly game?

Who wants to be in someone’s trauma bond?

Congratulations for getting everything that you desire,

Congratulations for reassuring yourself that you didn’t sacrifice some meaningful things,

Congratulations for telling yourself that you did this not because of your ego

Congratulations for me that I am finally free!

Innocent

Here comes this innocent guy

He does what he does

He thinks what he thinks

Yet, some people are poisoned

Here comes this innocent guy

He’s feeling the feel

He’s loving the love

Yet, some people are too delicate

Here comes this innocent guy

He is strong

He is resilient

Yet, some people are offended

This guy is aware 

This guy can sense

Whatever happens to this guy

Whatever things can bring down this guy

Whatever blame that he was expected to take

He knows the truth,

He is innocent.

Complete

You know I could fall for you
You know I will always ready for you to come here

You know I was needing you
You know I will always listen to you whenever you come

But I am safe here,
I know who I really am

I know you are beautiful
I know you are wonderful
I know you are irresistible
But I know my life is better without you

I know I could fall for you
I know I could love you
I know I was missing you
But I know I am so complete without you

I am feeling complete
I am feeling complete
Now I know I could love you,
When you are already whole and complete. 

Nikmat

Nikmat?
Kau tahu nikmat seperti apa yang membangkitkan jiwaku?
Bukanlah fantasi dewasa, tapi indahnya aura si nyonya puisi.

Habis sudah birahiku diterbangkan sajak;
Nafsuku dibawa akal sehatku memaknai puisi.

Apa kau tahu... mengapa puisi abadi?
Puisi melahap sekian menit waktu penikmatnya;
Tak sekali saja, namun hampir ditiap kesadaran harian.
Terulang lagi, terbaca lagi, terngiang lagi.
Dipahami lagi, dimaknai lagi, dirasakan lagi.
Akar pencari makna pun tumbuh di jiwa penikmatnya.

Sudah takdirnya,
penikmat puisi bukanlah manusia biasa.
Getaran yang mereka pancarkan,
secara halus menggerakkan dunia.

Pantas

Manusia bernafas, manusia bergerak.
Manusia berbicara, manusia berpikir.
Pastinya, manusia memutuskan perasaannya.

Mengambil alih? Lawannya mustahil.
Ambil kendali alur pikiran
Ambil kendali alur perasaan
Hingga sang keberanian datang untuk berkompromi dengan takdir.

Ketidaksiapan membawa kesedihan
Ketidaksiapan pun kadang pantas dirasakan,
sebagai penampar orang-orang yang tak mau mengambil alih

Yang menyadarkan diri,
secara perlahan... ada yang membawanya kembali ke arah hakiki.
Ada panggilan untuk memantaskan diri
Memantaskan diri untuk mendapatkan takdir terbaik.

Atas pikiran, perasaan, dan tingkah laku,
Apapun yang kita miliki hari ini
Apapun yang kita miliki di hidup ini
Baik atau buruk, kita semua pantas menerimanya.

Muda

Terlahir paling akhir
Tapi, ada keharusan menjadi paling mutakhir.
Terakhir di hierarki
Namun, motivasi paling atas.

Ketika orang mempraktekkan yang sudah ada,
Kubiarkan filosofi menyentuh jiwa.
Ketika orang berambisi,
Kubiarkan alam semesta membantu.

Belakangan lahir,
Namun sudut pandang membawaku ke depan.
Di usia mudaku, kuciptakan keberuntunganku.

Tarikan

Dulu, aku melaju jauh
Dulu, aku makan kesempatan yang ada
Dulu, semuanya aku genggam
Sampai, tangan kananku menampar diriku sendiri

Takut dan gelisah pernah datang
Hartaku hilang dibawa keterpurukan
Rasa kehilangan harta, menghalangi berlian baru untuk datang.

Ada sesuatu yang mengganggu tidurku
Ada sesuatu yang mengacaukan pikiranku
Ada sesuatu yang menarikku kebelakang,
Sehingga susah bagiku untuk memulai lagi.

Ada yang menarikku,
kesempurnaan lah namanya.
Ialah nyonya ilusi,
Ialah tuan yang menakutkan.

Aku berbicara dengannya
Kuceritakan kesedihanku
Kuikhlaskan alam semesta melakukan apa saja
Sampai akhirnya, tarikan ini pergi.

Kesempurnaan ini meninggalkan aku sendiri.
Kini, kebijakan alam semesta pun datang.
Ia siap mengatakan bahwa aku, jiwaku, dan ideku, tidak sempurna.
Namun, itulah yang membuat cerita hidupku sempurna.

Hadiah

Kutunggu kau dua jam, terasa lama.
Kulupakan kau delapan jam, waktu tak terasa berlalu.

Engkaulah sang waktu,
sebagai pembatas di fajar dan petangku.
Engkaulah sang waktu,
sebagai pembatas di antara hidup dan matiku.

Bukannya kutahan diriku,
tapi kutanamkan kesabaran.
Bukannya kusiksa diriku,
tapi ku ajarkan jiwa untuk menahan nafsu.

Puasaku adalah kesabaranku
Kesabaranku adalah pembelajaranku
Pembelajaranku mengetuk alam semesta
Alam semesta selalu memberikan hadiah untukku.
Puasaku adalah hadiahku.

Di Dalam Semua Orang (Inside of Everyone)

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VERSI BAHASA INDONESIA:

Kata-kata yang indah membangunkan jiwaku
Untuk mengakui bahwa keindahan itu berlimpah.
Menemukan keindahan kemanapun aku pergi
adalah keindahan!

Ketenangan sedang berlangsung di dalam hati ummat manusia
Kebahagiaan sedang mengisi kehidupan manusia
Pencerahan sedang mencerahkan pikiran manusia
Cinta sedang memimpin kegembiraan manusia
Kejernihan sedang tinggal di jiwa manusia sejak mereka lahir

Dalam pagi yang riang, rahmat hadir di dalam perjalanan kita
Dalam siang yang kuat, energi muncul dari dalam diri kita
Dalam sore yang indah, rasa syukur datang dari dalam
Dalam malam yang tenang, cinta melindungi nafas ummat manusia

Semua orang hadir bersama kepekaan
Semua orang hadir dalam kejernihan
Semua orang menemukan kebenaran
Kebenaran yang sudah hadir dalam semua orang



ENGLISH VERSION:

Beautiful words awaken my soul
To acknowledge that beauty is abundant.
Finding beauty everywhere I go
is beautiful!

Calmness is taking place in peope's hearts
Happiness is filling people's lives
Enlightenment is enlighting people's minds
Love is leading people's joy
Purity is staying at people's souls since they were born

In the cheerful morning, the grace is in our journey
In the powerful afternoon, the energy arise inside of us
In the beautiful evening, the grateful comes from within
In the calm night, the love protecs the breaths of humankind

Everyone is present with sensitivity
Everyone was born in purity
Everyone finds the truth
The truth that is already exist in everyone

Sang Pemain (The Player)

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VERSI BAHASA INDONESIA:

Mengalir sudah rasa ibamu kepadaku
Kini, giliranku untuk iba kepadamu
Kau pikir kau telah menyakitiku dengan sadis,
Tapi ah! Santai saja!
Semuanya sudah terbalaskan

Akulah sang pemain, meski memang dulu kaulah orangnya
Akulah sang pemain, meski kau ternyata seorang pemula
Akulah sang pemain, meski kau sedang mengasihani
Akulah sang pemain, meski kau sedang menyesal

Tak ada yang harus di sesali
Kau dapatkan apa yang kau tanam
Tuailah jiwaku yang telah kau tanam dengan bibit pemain

Maaf, kapan aku mulai bahagia karena jauh darimu?
Kapan terakhir kalinya kutanyakan kabarmu?
Kapan aku mulai mengabaikanmu?
Kapan terakhir kalinya aku berkata manis padamu?

Mungkin aku yang sekarang, bukanlah aku dalam versi terbaik
Tapi, biarkan saja roda kehidupan berjalan
Kulepaskan seluruh emosi yang terpendam
Emosi yang selama ini kutahan saat dulu aku masih bersamamu.


ENGLISH VERSION:

It's flowing already, your pity for me
Now, it's my turn to feel pity about you
You think that you have hurt me sadistically,
But ah! Just relax!
Everything is paid off!

I am the player, though you were the person
I am the player, though you are evidently a beginner
I am the player, though you are pitying
I am the player, though you are regretting

There's nothing to be regretted
You get what you have planted
Reap my soul that you have planted with the player seed

Sorry, when did I begin to be happy because of being away from you?
When was the last time I asked how are you?
When did I begin to ignore you?
When was the last time I spoke sweet words to you?

Maybe who I am right now, is not the best version of me
But, let the wheel of life runs.
I release all the suppressed emotions
The emotions that I have been holding when I was with you.

YA! (YES!)

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VERSI BAHASA INDONESIA

Manisnya senyummu membuatku curiga,

Mungkin memang engkau sangat manis.

Sayangnya, aku takut untuk ditipu lagi.

Terimakasih telah membuatku sakit,

Setidaknya dulu pernah ku anggap itu semua terasa manis.

Terimakasih telah mengkhianati kepercayaanku,

Setidaknya pernah kubuat dirimu seolah orang yang nomor satu.

Sakit yang kau beri kadang memaksaku untuk memikirkan orang lain,

Tapi, tak kan lagi kubuat diriku sengsara untuk memaksakannya.

Memaksakan diriku untuk tetap bersamamu sudah sangat menyakitkan.

Ya, aku marah. Ya, aku kecewa.

Ya, aku sedih. Ya, aku bingung.

Ya, kau pergi. Ya, aku terjebak.

Ya, kau mati. Ya, aku masih hidup.

Kenapa kau khianati?

Kenapa kau jahat?

Kenapa kau gunakan aku?

Aku masih belum bisa menerimanya.

Kupikir, dengan kurang dari lima puluh kata,

Emosiku telah tesalurkan.

Mungkin hubunganku denganmu begitu rumit.

Sampai sesusah ini aku untuk sembuh.

ENGLISH VERSION:

The sweet of your smile made me suspecting

Maybe indeed you are very sweet

Unfortunately, I am afraid to be fooled again.

Thank you for making me sick,

At least I used to perceive that everything tastes good.

Thank you for betraying my trust,

At least I have made you like number one person for me.

The pain that you gave sometimes force me to think about someone else,

But, no more for me to make myself suffer by forcing it.

Forcing me to stay with you have been very painful.

Yes, I was angry. Yes, I was disappointed.

Yes, I was sad. Yes, I was confused.

Yes, you are gone. Yes, I am stuck.

Yes, you are dead. Yes, I am still alive.

Why did you betray?

Why were you evil?

Why did you use me?
I still can’t accept that.

I thought, with less than fifty words,

My emotion would have been released.

Maybe my relationship with you is too complicated.

So then, as hard as this for me to heal.

Aku Tahu (I Know)

VERSI BAHASA INDONESIA:
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Kau pergi menjauh dan
Kau telah melukiskan cerita di hidupku
Senang untuk mengetahui bahwa luka-luka itu terasa indah
Karena aku telah memutuskan untuk merasakan keindahannya.


Aku bangga padamu,
Kau sangat mudah untuk berjalan terus
Senang untuk mengetahui bahwa kau melupakan semuanya dengan mudah
Setidaknya, aku tahu kau bahagia sekarang.


Disini aku, memutuskan untuk jadi pembelajar,
Bukannya malah menjadi korban.
Disini aku, memutuskan untuk menenangkan diriku,
Bukannya malah memberikan sebuah dendam.


Setelah terjebak,
Sekarang aku tahu betapa indahnya untuk terus berjalan.
Setelah disakiti,
Sekarang aku tahu betapa indahnya untuk menyembuhkan luka seseorang.



ENGLISH VERSION:

You walked away and
You marked something in my life
Good to know that those scars tasted good
Cause I decided to feel the sweetness


I am proud of you
It’s so easy to move on for you
Good to know that you easily forget everything
At least, I know that you are happy right now


Here I am, decide to be a learner,
Instead of being a victim.
Here I am, decide to calm myself,
Instead of giving a revenge.


After being stuck,
Now I know how beautiful it is to keep going.
After being hurt,
Now I know how beautiful it is to heal someone’s pain.

You Do!

You were there to say
that is not good to chase my gratification.
But, you were there angry,
when I blocked your gratification.
Have I been controlling? Have I been influencing?
Please understand that I have been jealous and care about you.

You said that I torture you sometimes.
But, what we have is torturing me.
Please, realize it!
Please, understand it!

How can I stay with you?
You are someone that ask me to be around you,
But you leave me blank in the dark.
How can I stay with you?
If my love for you is not deserved well?

You look for the others and yes! You do it!
But when you feel lonely, I am still here for you.
You want to forget me and yes! You do it!
But when you need affection, I am here for you.

That's the reason why I want to fight this!
That's the reason why there has been a lot of arguments!
That's the reason why I accidently torture you right after I gave you affection!
Because I want to be smart in the relationship!
Because I am afraid that you'll leave me after that!
I hate to know that I want to do the same to you!
I am so sorry! But, I promise to stop the cycle of pain.

Well, you said you love me all the way.
For my love, let its sincerity says something to you,
It has been telling you, but you have been being dead.
I still want to say that I love you,
But I should live my great life. 

KAMU! (YOU!)

VERSI BAHASA INDONESIA:
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Hei Kamu!
Kamu penuh dengan aib.
Ups, itu terlalu intens.
Hmm... Kau tahu bahwa kau penuh dengan kebohongan, benar?

Tapi, ada satu hal...
Apakah aku mencintaimu sebesar itu?
Apakah aku peduli padamu sebesar itu?
Tentu, Iya! Aku cinta kamu!

Aku terlahir dengan cinta,
Kamu tidak, haha!
Jadi, izinkan aku memberikanmu sebuah cinta
Aku mengira bahwa kamu akan menolaknya
Tapi tak apa, kamu tak bisa menolak fakta bahwa...
Aku memberikanmu sebuah cinta di setiap detik hidupku.

Kenapa kamu hanya berpikir tentang dirimu?
Kenapa kamu tidak baik?
Kenapa kamu tidak sensitif sama sekali?
Kenapa aku mencintai seorang setan sepertimu?

Lihatlah dirimu! Sangat tidak merasa aman!
Kamu pikir bahwa kamu akan terlihat tolol ketika kamu peduli
Kamu pikir bahwa kamu akan terlihat bodoh untuk menjadi baik

Jadi, siapa sih kamu?
Sebuah kekuatan yang membuatku menghakimi sesuatu?
Bahkan, mengapa saya membuat sebuah puisi tentangmu?
Biarkan aku berpikir

Hmm...
Aku kira karena kamu tidak nyata
Maafkan aku, kamu tidak nyata
Kamu adalah ilusi dan tipuan
Mungkin kamu setan yang tak mau membaca tulisanku
Mungkin kamu penyesalan di masa depanku,
Kuikhlaskan dirimu, kubiarkan kau pergi
Aku harus kembali ke kehidupan nyata, selamat tinggal!

ENGLISH VERSION:
Hey, you!

You are full of mortification.

Ups, that is too intense

Hmm... You know that you are full of lies, right?

But, here is the thing...

Do I love you that much?

Do I care about you that much?

Of course, yes! I love you!

I was born with love,

You were not! Haha!

So, let me give you a love

I assume that you will reject it

But that's okay, you can't reject the fact that...

I am giving you a love in every second of my life

Why you only think about yourself?

Why you are not kind?

Why you are not sensitive at all?

Why do I love a devil like you?

Just look at you! Super insecure!

You think that you'll look silly when you care

You think that you'll look stupid to be nice

So, who the heck are you?
A force that makes me judge something?

Why do I even make a poetry about you?
Let me think

Hmm...

I guess because you are not real

I am sorry, you are not real
You are an illusion and deception
Maybe you are a demon who will not read my writing
Maybe you are the regret in my future,
I genuinely let you go, I let you go.

I need to go back to the real life, bye!

Aku Menikmati Tulisan Ini (I am enjoying this writing)

Dalam versi Bahasa Indonesia - In Indonesian version:

Aku Menikmati Tulisan Ini

Yang terpenting kemuliaan mimpi kita, bukan buramnya kertas itu.
Kita menarik nafas dan memastikan diri kita tenang.
Yang terpenting ingatan dan rasa kita, bukan unggahan di dunia lain.
Kita pastikan bahwa kita bahagia selamanya.
Kulit pun ikut merasakan sensasinya!

Aku menikmati tulisan ini
Aku membaca rangkaian kata yang mengandung makna
Makna yang ditakdirkan untuk membahagiakan seluruh umat manusia.
Aku terbawa arus kebaikan
Aku menikmati sensasi indah yang mataku konsumsi dari rangkaian kata
Rangkaian kata yang dibangun oleh imajinasi

Panik? Mengapa?
Adakah kotoran dihatimu?
Tenang! Terimalah kenyataan dan tenangkan dirimu
Bersabarlah... di detik ini juga, kepanikanmu menghilang satu per satu
di menit ini juga kita tersenyum bahagia, menarik nafas sedalam mungkin untuk rileks
Kita percaya selamanya
Rileks adalah gerbang menuju jalan indah.

Kita nikmati jalan indah ini, berkelana di perjalanan super
Satu... Dua... Tiga...
Kita berjalan ke dalam.

Aku adalah kita. Karena Kamu percaya bahwa kita terhubung
Aku terbawa arus suci, seperti fitrah seluruh manusia yang pasti suci
Aku terbawa arus... Arus yang aku sukai
Arus yang membersihkan diriku,
Arus yang mengingatkan aku bahwa kita adalah bagian dari kesucian
Arus yang memusnahkan kotoran yang sedikit kecil

Kamu melihat permata
Kamu adalah aku yang dulu
Sekarang aku sebesar jagat raya!
Sekarang kamu sebesar jagar raya!
Sekarang kita sebesar jagat raya!

Mungkin kamu tidak percaya, bahwa selamanya..
Selamanya... dan akan selamanya...
Kebaikan ada dalam dirimu... Kamu percaya itu!
Selamanya kamu akan percaya! Selamanya!

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In English version:

I am enjoying this writing

The most important is the noble of our dream, not the blur of that paper
We take a breath and make sure to calm ourselves
The most important is our memory and sense, not the uploads in another world
We make sure that we are happy forever
Even the skins join to feel that sensations!

I am enjoying this writing
I am reading a series of words which contain a meaning
A meaning that is destined to beatify the entire mankind
I am drifted in a stream of kindness
I am enjoying a beautiful sensation that my eyes consume through a series of words
A series of words which has built by imagination

Panic? Why?
Is there any dirt in your heart?
Calm! Accept the reality and calm yourself
Be patient.. in this instant, your panic is disappearing one by one
In this minute we are smiling happily, taking a breath as deep as possible to relax
We believe, forever
Relax is a gate to a beautiful path.

We enjoy this beautiful path, wander in a super journey

One... Two... Three

We are walking inside.

I am Us. Because you believe that we are all connected

I am drifted in a holy stream, same like the disposition of all people which must be holy.

I am drifted in a stream, a stream that I like

A stream that clears me,

A stream that reminds me that I am part of holiness

A stream that destroys the dirt which is a little.

You are seeing the jewel
You are who I was
Now I am as big as universe!
Now You are as big as universe!
Now we are as big as universe!

Maybe you don't believe, that forever..

Forever and always be forever..

The kindness exists in yourself.. You believe it!

Forever you will believe it! Forever!